I'm out of the trap, I'm free from this obession at last!!!!!

I'm no longer depressed and I'm so happy now.

I don't want it to happen again and it will never happen again....I promise myself that.

This is the last and final message for this blogger....

I am the alpha and the omega, the beginning and the end, the first and last.

I still love him deeply, so deep I can't get out.
And he doesn't love me at all.
I want to see him, I long to see him. He is like a drug to me, I need to see him...even from a distance.
You guys out there must think I'm totally crazy about him, well yes I am.
I tell my friends I don't like him anymore because I don't want them to know how obsessed I am about him, everything I do has something to do with him. I reject other guys because I’m so obsessed about him and I just want him to love me and no one else if that is the price I must pay.

I wish he knew me better, I think that will give me a better chance but he doesn’t want to. I love him dearly and deeply.

I vow everlasting love to Michael Wang and time shall not touch or writher my love towards him.
This is a vow I shall not break and I have not broken one yet.

I finally reviled to him about who I am.
I feel relief about it.
He looked at me in shock for some reason.

I feel much better now that I have posted this.

I can't not matter how hard I try.
Its like it part of me now.
I love him, and I care about him so much I can't forget about him.

He is 18 and I'm 15 now, he's just a little older. I've only talked to him once.

We have little in common and we live in different worlds of concept.

I see him at school everyday, wishing I could just say something to him...anything at all but I just couldn't when I see him; I get so nervous.

I really want to be with him, I really like him...
I usually can't stay interested in a guy for more than 5 minutes but this guy is special, I could stay interested for more than 5 minutes, in fact I'm still interested...and its been 2 years since I first saw him; its was like love at first sight.

I'll make it clear, I love him because he is special. When I mean special, it doesn't mean, extremely handsome or smart. He is just average in terms of being handsome, and he isn't smart or outstanding; which makes me like him even more.

well this is the end for today. (sighing relief that I can share this.)

I have had a crush on him for about 2 years now. I still so. I love him so much I'm lost.
But he only wants to be friends. He wants to be a flight attendant. Gee, thats good, I mean just to see him it pretty expensive...lol

oh well, I should forget about him.